In all truthfullness I will be 26 years old in November, and for those 26 years I have spent as a christian I felt as if I was walking a tightrope across a canyon
. (and by no means am I saying all christians feel this way I am only addressing what I was taught) I was constantly told I was going to burn in hell. I fell in love with a non-christian (I was told that is a no no in the bible) I smoked, I wear makeup, deodorant....I have always felt that those were pretty stupid things to be condemmed to an eternity of fire and torture
. I always felt as though I was never doing enough when it cam to worshiping GOD. All the questions I asked never recieved an anwer except "you just have to accept it". Why then is the bible full of hypocracy? One page it says "All men sin" and on another it says "no sin shall enter heaven no not one" why does it tell women to cover their heads when they pray, yet none do? When I asked this I was told by a preacher, it was a cultural thing from the bible was written. WHAT? (1 Cor. 11:5-6) Also who is this great comfortor that is talked about in the book of John? I have been told it's the holy ghost. It does not say that. (John 16:7-14, John 14:16-26) Another thing is did the egyptian mythical god Horus have a mirrored life to that of the Christian Jesus (and he was "around" 1000 years before Jesus)? Another thing that I can't understand. Christians are against gays/lesbians (strictly speaking of what is written in the bible) yet Jesus never spoke about gays. Jesus spoke about forgiveness and to love thy neighbor, yet wasn't it a christian pastor in Florida trying to rally an internation "burn a qur'an day"
? Christians are not supposed to judge one another yet constantly say who is going to hell and who isn't. I thought that was up to GOD. I have not attended a church since 2003, when my Grandmother passed away, I loved her but she was an evangelical christian. She had stage 4 ovarian cancer, anyone who wanted to be around her could not be sick and had to have her flu shot, yet members from the congregation of her church came to "lay their hands on her to heal her" only GOD can use miracles to heal, he's GOD he does not need us to help him heal a sick person through faith. They put their dirty germ infested hands on her, she got sick, and died much sooner than expected. She sent money to "preachers" on TV who promised to send her a prayer rag that would heal her. I watched as she gave her social security money to these frauds, in exchange for an old dish rag. I walk through a store and hear "christians" making comments about women wearing the hijab that are walking in front of them, about they hope she don't blow walmart up. How is it ok to say hurtful things but call yourself a christian? How is it ok to call a newborn baby a terrorist (that actually happened to me when my daughter was born). Some people are good Christians and I am not saying all are bad, or anything. But I have an uncle to who is a preacher who is teaching that muslims worship a different GOD. and people are actually believing him. The jewish God, christian God and muslim God are all the same God. Allah is arabic for God, when a french person prays and says Dieu are they praying to an alternate God because they are praying in their native language? No. I will never tell someone of another religion they are wrong, none of us can say that with 100% accuracy until we die and go before God. But we are only on this Earth for a short period of time, why should it be like this? It shouldn't. I won't ask anyone to accept my faith, just as I won't tolerate some one asking me to accept theirs. My journey has been six long years in the making. I have a good grasp on what I was raised, but in MY heart I believe that I should be a muslim. I am not a stupid person, I have done my research, and I have learned a great deal. But in the end we are all responsible for our own actions on this earth, no one can answer for your sins the same way you cannot answer for anyone elses sins
. Religion is a personal choice and a choice made for your eternal soul. I think if everyone understood that and just tried to understand everyone else, we would live in a much better world